I watched "The Matrix" for the first time since Marshall left a few nights ago. I have his Matrix collection, which includes the movie trilogy as well as the Animatrix and the making of films, etc. It took me a long time to get up enough bravery to make myself watch it just because of all of the memories I have of Marshall associated with the Matrix. He was entranced by it. There was just something about it that had enraptured him. He wore Dad's old black trench coat, got some Neo-looking sun glasses, and even researched getting Neo's boots from Airwalk. If my memory is correct (which it is often not), I think he even wrote a paper about the spiritual themes in the Matrix. I remember him researching it. His favorite Biblical motif was the battle between good and evil. He longed to be a part of that. Video games and movies were a way he could escape into that world that he wanted to fight in so badly. His favorite Christian band was Demon Hunter, and his favorite movies besides the Matrix were films like the Underworld, LOTR, Black Hawk Down (I love this movie and Derek has Marshall's copy but I haven't been able to bring myself to watch it yet), The Last Samurai, etc. Marshall took Kung Fu (like Neo) at one point and wanted to be a ninja. And sometimes when I think about Marshall's warrior heart, I think about what he must be doing in heaven right now. Now he is fighting the real battle. He is a soldier in the only true army. A soldier of heaven. A demon hunter. And I can't wait to join him.
"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."
- Ephesians 6:12
6 comments:
how cool...i loooove hearing your heart about Marshall. It's interesting to hear you talk about how he was "entranced" and "enraptured" with the Matrix because it gives me a fuller perspective on who he was...especially with the reason you say he liked playing video games and watching movies...it's like a more in-depth picture of who Marshall was...and no one can give us Heidi's perspective of Marshall except you. :)
It's funny to hear you say how he wanted to be a ninja...Kelly jokes about being one alllll the time...hehe.
I'm so glad you updated!!! I've been waiting for an update for awhile!!! :)
by the way....how come the date on this entry say wednesday, november 21, 2007?
Thanks for your sweet comments, Urs. I started this entry around Nov. 22, so since I already had two entries for that day, I put it for Nov. 21. There were a lot of posts that I finally got around to finishing yesterday (at 3am). Sorry for the posting drought. I've been busy with graduation, Christmas, NCLEX, new job, etc. But I've had more time last week and this week with Derek being out of town and all.
Love you.
Heidi
yes, good to hear your perspective of Marshall and the movies, bands, and video games he loved. Those Neo boots are cool.
Thanks for sharing Heidi. I love you tons. And am so excited you pasted the NCLEX.
-m
ohhh ok...that makes sense...along with the other entry with a november date that you just posted.
no apologies for the "drought".. hehe...you're cute. :) I knew you would get around to catching up on your posting soon enough. :)
Yeah . . . I've kind of been avoiding Matrix stuff. I am glad you were able to watch and think through that stuff.
Good word, "entranced". I had to look it up to make sure that it was spelled like that. It is. Cool.
Hannah
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